Release Some Truth

A new found friend said to me.

It's kinda good to release some truth to the world sometimes.

It got me thinking.

I havn't been honest to alot of people and most importantly to myself.

As much as I'm a sucker for happily ever after.

In this time and age, you don't see it happening anymore.

Whatever happened to old fashioned romance?

I crave for it.

I need to be with a person who loves me.

I mean truly loves me.

All this being single and being happy is all a facade.

I hate being single.

I may want to have alot of fun right now.

But every morning when I wake up and realise, that I don't have a person lying next to me, holding me the whole night, makes me wish I could just sleep all over again.

It's really sad.

At the same time, I can't put myself out into the world just yet.

I'm afraid.

I mean, I'm wary of everyone.

I put a wall between anyone and myself just to be safe.

Or at least I think I'm safe.

I guess I'm just feeling alittle lost right now.

Not used to being in this situation.

But then again I may wake up later feeling like I can take on the world.

I stand with one feet on each side.

Naughty and nice.

Happy and sad.

Feeling both, all at the same time.

It's just me.

I'm weird.