Always Waiting

I sit here all alone everyday.
From the moment everyone leaves the house till they return.
A lot of time is spent in front of the screen just waiting for someone to reach out.
Waiting for a friendly hand.
But all I get are people who use me as an emotional dump site.
They tell me stories of their unhappiness, their loneliness.
As I extend a listening ear and heart.
They take it wholeheartedly.
I thought they'd do the same for me.
But they are not capable of it.
They disappear into the dark.
And leave me lonely again.

I see friends who regularly meet.
Those who are thankful of having friends who'd always be there for them.
Where are these people?
Why do I not have such friends?

I tried over and over again.
Yet I have been left disappointed each time.

I am here to just be there for others.
But no one really sees the fact that I need one.
I need someone to just sit with me and not say anything.

I have extended invitations for hangouts and meals.
But everyone is busy with their own lives.
I'm shrinking everyday.
For I find it sad to eat alone.

If this goes on any longer.
I'd disappear too.
And then we'd find out who'd notice.
We'll find out who'd actually thought of me as a friend.

And not an emotional dump site.