Intimidating

Two weeks ago I was told I was intimidating.

Am I?

It's really scary to think that I am intimidating.

I mean I am scaring potential new friends.

I still can't think of a concrete reason for me being intimidating.

He said I'm mentally intimidating.

Does that mean that I'm smart?

Too smart perhaps?

I doubt so.

My baby sister finally turned 18.

I know I havnt exactly been a very good host now that she is back.

But I don't know what to talk to her.

I only remember the little girl who used to terrorise her elder brother.

I don't know my sister.

Of course I feel somewhat sad.

But I don't know what to say to her.

I'm sure she doesn't know me either.

I feel that she is closer to our cousin.

Is it just me keeping a distance from everybody?

I'm actually afraid to really open up to anybody at all.

No one really knows me.

It's sad isn't it?

I miss my family.

But I really don't know how to open up to them.

Over time the gap is just so easy to maintain.

Me and my own dark garden.