Always the friend, not always the girlfriend

The new trend is to just hangout and not date. But what if someone says: "It's always a date with you." What does dating friends mean? I do understand friends do date. But what exactly are the parameters? Do you just go on a date and for that moment the both of you are just happy and are actually dating? What happens after? When you part do you just put that person back on the shelf?

Saying "yes we are dating. No we are not seeing anyone else. Unless you want to.." is being as vague as walking in a fog and not knowing where the cliff ends.

Just because you do not want to say the wrong things your actions are probably saying plenty. It actually feels like you want me to be in your life. But you are afraid to commit. You'll gladly meet me when you have the time. But you want to keep me at arms length. Until maybe one day you are able to say with absolute certainty that you want me.

I think you are just being a coward! I do not like being your backup plan. I want you to say exactly what it is you want from me. You are being selfish. 

You are very good at saying the right things. You are very good at hooking me in with the possibilities of "US" at the very beginning. Then you just faded away. Like you gave up one day and just forgot to tell me what exactly is going on.

I am good at reading between the lines but I'm also the hopeless romantic that still believes things can work out. I want you to make it with me. Fool me once, shame on me. Fool me twice... I'm just the idiot who'll end up being left behind huh?

Wake up! Wake up! This is a horrible dream and will probably haunt me till you decide...